While I am on hold with my cardiologist - yes, I'm finally calling her - I figured I could type a little entry. This weekend was so much fun, what with spending time with my best friends, so much time with Audrey, the wedding - it was just a blast ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what's been going on lately but I have been having some of the darkest, most depressing dreams in recent memory, save the one I had two years ago about my mom dying. Most of the dreams I've been having lately involve death in some way. I lost someone important to me in one, a child of a friend died in another in a truly terrible way. ( Read more... )

Have you ever had one of those nightmares that feels so real you can't go back to bed afterward? My dream was so terrible. It was so real, so tangible in the depth of the sadness. I woke up in my dark room, realized where I was. I rolled onto my side, closed my eyes, and a flood of sorrow so strangling washed over me that i lost it. I came upstairs ( Read more... )

I don't know why coffee is able to make things better. Seriously. Is it a chemical reaction or something? Does the caffeine act like a mood stabilizer or what? I have been wound up tighter than a rubber ball all morning, and now, with a fresh cup of coffee in my hand, I feel a little better. I should be at One Voice, but I'm not. I should be a lot ( Read more... )